As you can see it’s been a hot minute since I last posted. I think I needed a break from life to let my mental state recuperate. I haven’t really been doing anything outside of taking care of the sweet little one and spending time with my husband. I did, however, quit my job. Aside from a few loose ends, I just decided it was time to move on. I’ve never felt better about leaving an opportunity. It was just too far away from my passions and it was draining me. I couldn’t be a good mom when all I could think about what the dread I felt for work.
So from there, I’m not sure what my next move is. I’m currently working on my real estate license and just kind of enjoying life. I’d like to find more outlets to be creative and work with my hands. I find that I’m happiest when I can create things.
I suppose the point in sharing all of this is to illustrate how important mental health is in relation to parenting. I needed to “reset” for the sake of my daughter. Since taking the step back, I’ve realized I was selling myself short and it was hurting both of us. I’m so grateful my husband has a job that allows me to kind of retreat inward from time to time. I just want other moms to know it’s okay to not have a 9-5 CAREER. It’s okay to not buy into the rushing around lifestyle. Some people, introverts especially, need that downtime to re-energize and discover themselves again. Life is too short to stay in the career you hate just because being busy is glamorized.
Perhaps the postpartum hormones are a little out of balance. Perhaps I’m just returning to my bitchy baseline. Maybe, I’m depressed. I’ve just been dwelling, quite extensively, on what all the crap we stress ourselves out over will mean in a year, ten years, when we’re in a nursing home. Who the hell cares if we get that next bonus? Our grandkids sure as heck won’t give a damn. They won’t care how much we had in our bank account, which Iphone we owned, or who we “networked” with at our work parties.
I just…can’t buy into the hooplah of the busy life we’re supposed to be sold on these days. Where is the emphasis on camping, running barefoot, and hugging the ones we care for. As a mother, I think it’s important to reflect on the slower way of life and not rush our little ones into this chaotic world we live in. I may still be constructing the framework of how I intend to do so, but I felt the impulse to share my feelings so they won’t weigh on my soul so heavily. I see so many moms trying to be the “IT” mommy. I just wish I could log on and see more individuals that were truly INDIVIDUAL.
Hello all! I would like to first say, thank you for checking out Daily Struggle Bus! This blog is somewhat of a personal experiment. I have a track history of starting projects and being extremely ambitious and excited about them. Then, I slowly stop talking about them, thinking about them, and then they’re just gone…I want this blog to not only be my new hobby, but also a tool to hold myself accountable for continuing hobby. I have a long list of failed projects that include various direct sales companies (Beauticontrol, Origami Owl, and Stella & Dot to name a few), restoring antique furniture (which I actually LOVE), and even two blogs I started only to delete within weeks of my first post.
So that’s why I’m starting Daily Struggle Bus. I’m thinking if I throw it out there, y’all can call me out if I fall behind or start that familiar cycle. Also, I’m a MOM now! That’s such a crazy statement for me to make. I struggled to get pregnant for two years and now that I have this beautiful daughter, I want to be a good role model for her. I want her to see that her mama can set her mind to something and go out there and do it!
I’m new to this…I feel like if I don’t have a framework it will be so easy for me to let this go and just delete the blog within a month or so. I’ve always heard “it takes 21 days to form a habit.” Whether that’s true or not, I don’t know, but I plan to follow one of those Pinterest blog prompt posts for the first 30 days. I want my hobby to become my new hobby, my escape, my chance to connect with other moms. Plus, as an added bonus, I’ll get to scope out the results from those Pinterest pages that preach “become a blogger!!!” and report back to everyone on my results 🙂
So that’s the gist of it. Nice to meet y’all. Stay tuned, read, enjoy, and say “hi” every once in a while!